Very Special Evening

Our evening went very much as planned. It is a special thought to think that this wonderful and beautiful man is my Valentine every single day of the year. He is my best friend, lover, and a genuinely beautiful person. He is one of the few people on this earth that I can truly be myself around. He is there and forgives when what I am thinking and what I say do not match. Somehow he knows what I meant to say....It is a beautiful thing to share so much with one person. For example when we are watching tv and something funny is said and we chuckle in the same exact way at the same exact time. For me there is nothing better than that. We are so connected that I think that must be what twins feel.

I love you my sweetheart and thank you for making my life full, funny, joyful, and full of love.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

Or should I say Happy Sweetheart Day! I love my sweetheart and I am so thankful for him. He makes me feel like a queen every day!

Tonight we are going to make a special dinner at home. I made the dessert. A strawberry cake with frosting and heart sprinkles. We also have chocolate ice-cream for the side. He is making ribs, corn on the cob, and salad. YUMMY!! Then we are spending the evening snuggling and watching junk tv. Or in other words "House" because it is one of my favorite shows.

Today and Tonight are going to be AWESOME!

Has it been two weeks?

Has it really been two weeks since my last post? Yepper Skepper the date on my last post tells me. I have been in a funk. I mean a real funk.

Anyway a lot has happened in two weeks. Some good and some not so good. For one thing let me just preface this with the fact that 1) our over the stove microwave has not worked for over 2 years and 2) the thermostat on our oven has not worked well for as long as we have been in this home 3) the thermostat on our oven has not worked at all for over a year and 4) we have been using a counter top microwave that uses up the space on a whole counter. As far as end of the world events, these do not count. That being said, every time we go to Lowes, we end up in the oven section. Daydreams begin, we think we talk and then we go about our business having tortured ourselves once again. Well on January 29 we were once again torturing ourselves and finally gave in to the desire. We now have a new oven and over the oven microwave. We are giving ourselves one year to pay this off. I must say that the delivery and installation of said items did not go smoothly but they are now in and they are beautiful! I did a batch of cookies and each batch was done at the same temp for the same amount of minutes. (I used to have to reduce oven heat and time for each batch and then it was still touch and go if they would be over done or not). I feel blessed with our new appliances and the gift of baking.

I have now successfully made a batch of home made onion bagels. My sweetheart says they are better than Brugers (sp?). I take that as quite the compliment :-)

I am still trying to find balance in my life but I am getting there. Day by day and evening by evening. I have once again set aside Saturday as time for my family. We will see if I do better this year.

I am looking back and I would not hesitate to be the lone driver for my sweetheart for anything but I think I miss the 1 hour at lunchtime that was mine. Greedy selfish mine! To do with what I want. I am trying to find balance now without that time in the middle of the day to be out in the sunshine listening and watching nature. I feel lost without it and I know that is the hole in my soul right now. So I am working on different things to fill the hole and try to find a balance with our new schedule. It is difficult but slowly I am finding out who I am again.